After a quiet week of deep thought I have decided that I am staying on until the end! I heavily weighed the pros and cons and decided that my need and want for a change in my life trumped the fact that I had let myself fall so far behind… I am a winner, I can do this. I was able to come to terms and gracefully ask for help…. MOM!!!! I would have never been able to get through all the ups and downs of contemplation this week with out her! She gave me that not just a little nudge but a full out push me over the edge and I better open my wings kinda push. I am so grateful that I have such a supportive network of people in my life! The week ended with an AMAZING family day and supportive call with my guide…Thank you Ken for reaching out! It was exactly what I was needing to help get over this old blueprint. It is easier said than done, when you have hit a wall and have a difficult time breaking through, I don’t like giving up, and I don’t like losing.
So, when I switched to the scroll marked 3 in The Greatest Salesman in the World I couldn’t help but cry. It was exactly what I needed to hear at that exact moment in time…. “I will persist until I succeed. I was not delivered unto this world in defeat, nor does failure course through my veins. I am not a sheep waiting to be prodded by my shepherd. I am a lion and I refuse to talk, to walk, to sleep with the sheep. I will not hear those who weep and complain, for their disease is contagious. Let them join the sheep. The slaughterhouse of failure is not my destiny.”
I could not see beyond the wall and it hit me smack dab in the middle of my forehead. That seemed to be all that I had been doing. Turn to the person next to you and hug them, not one of those tap on the back, stop touching me kind of hugs, a real genuine bear hug, in our family it’s called the Roob hug. They may only be in your life for a short period of time, but each and every single person was put there for a reason, learn that reason and be thankful for it. This is the year I am making a dramatic change in my life, I am looking up toward a bigger and better tomorrow!
“Always will I take another step. If that is of no avail I will take another, and yet another. In truth, one step at a time is not too difficult. I will persist until I succeed.”